I recently just moved out and the feelings were so overwhelming. I don't know if it was because the previous weeks before the move were so rough (family health scares) and the emotions of that previous week lingered, or because of the move itself. Could be both.
I've never really had a chance to say goodbye to a place and I wondered if that could be why I had so many emotions regarding this move. Maybe it was because this place was so pivotal in my own personal growth. Or maybe because I am so happy in this stage of my life and that home signified a lot of that happiness.
Spending 2 days of packing elicited so many tears. It felt so bittersweet. Excited for all the changes but grieving this also beautiful life of mine. Although the future is bright, the future is still full on uncertainty while the present is concrete and familiar.
Never the less, reflecting about the move 3 weeks later as I'm writing this, I'm glad that I experienced all the new emotions. I always find it intriguing when I get to explore and feel new things. It makes me feel alive, even if the emotions aren't necessarily joyful.